Snowfall

Last night was my first winter in Northern Idaho.  Emotionally it was tough, and being a single woman who has never owned a house in the snow, weather wise, it was a bit to handle. 

I must say though, last year, compared to this year, night and day difference.  Last year, I dreaded going outside with my shovel, it was hard work that sometimes depending on the inches of snow Mother Nature gave me, could take an hour to clear.  This year, I place my cocktail in the snow drift, I take the time to listen, to hear the lack of noise, look at the beauty, that in the hustle and bustle can be so hard to find.  Tonight, I actually did my neighbors on both sides of my house, sidewalks, driveways, all inclusive.  And, I enjoyed myself.  I was able to look around, and accept my life, enjoy my life.  Yes, it is not the one that I ever thought I would live, but it is the one that I have, and I am going to embrace it and relish in what I have been given.

Circles and Turns

Sometimes... I wonder if full circle is anything that should even be a statement.  I mean, lets face it, if your life isn't perfect full circle, is it what we should brag about?

In saying that, my life was never perfect.  It was just living the life that I had the capacity to live.  For a minute there, it was touch and go, but you know what, I think I've come full circle.  I'm back to the place where it makes sense again. 

Let's see, maybe a corner turn will do me better.

Still

Here, when I think I am over it, still hate you.  Listening to songs, wondering, still, how it came to this.  Oddly, enough, how does it still not even matter to you?

I don't want you in my thoughts anymore!