So this last month, I found out I am perimenopausal. Which, essentially means I am fucked. I was already crazy, but now I have even more hormones running through my body, just incase I wanted to prove otherwise.
The good thing is, that explains a little bit of the weight gain that is forming around my belly, and the emotions that I am feeling. I guess I no longer need to feel like the psycho bitch that I was beginning to feel like.
But the bad thing is, I feel like a psycho. I struggle with controlling my irrationality and all the emotion that comes with it.
I can't sleep to save my life, and I cant sort through my emotions enough to save it.
I am trying to be a decent mom, not even good, just decent, but I feel so spent by the time I put my kids to bed that I fall asleep from exhaustion.
I don't want my daughters to suffer because I have problems, but shit, can someone help me deal with my emotions?
I am not yet dwelling in crazy town, just expressing my overwhelming feelings of not being enough.
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